They're talking behind my back...

...but I know what they're saying.





It's either because I heard them (careless)...




...or I heard it through the grapevine.






They hate me.







I know they hate me.











*bulls---*

LETHAL

There's something burning inside
I'm on the edge but it feels like I'm stuck on the ground
And there's no one else to turn to -- but you

All I see is you all around
Gently breathing, heart stops beating
Knowing that you're by my side

Make me whole, break me down
Do it all over again

Your kiss is dangerous
You have no equal
I'm poisoned by your touch
Your love is lethal

There's something holding me back
It's written in the air but I know it's all in my mind
Hold you, feel you, kiss you, taste you...
..oh, when can I?

I'm your soldier
I'll keep you alive, hold you through the night
I'll be your soldier... if you let me
I'm your soldier
No one else could ever be
I'll be your soldier... if you let me

I didn't realize:

It was near dinner time, dad and my brother were talking about stuff. I just finished cooking. We were all quite famished.



















I was just going at it normally, when it hit me when we were about to start eating.I set an extra plate when in reality there was only three of us who were going to eat. I don't know what was that about. All I know is, yes. I miss my mother very much.

As we remember and visit our loved ones this season. Let them be our inspirations as we go on with life.


Later, y'all. Peace.

ramble.

rain.

blue.

oatmeal.

yum.

food.

think.

hurt.

pain.

act.

cold.

inside.

heat.

love.

hate.

shout.

outside.

front.

back.

wander.

feel.

touch.

see.

hear.

walk.

run.

jump.

scream.

forget.

regret.

dumb.

stupid.

light.

blind.

dark.

missed.

everything.

hidden.

music.

woman.

man.

you.

me.

stop.

don't.

leave.

return.

come.

go.

What does my name mean?

Go HERE and try out yours...
I did two versions, for my full name and my nickname. Turns out that it fits my point of view perfectly. Coincidence, I suppose. But it's a nice boost for me.

Enrico

Lord of the manor "Teutonic"

Your calm manner and maturity belie a fierce determination to be at the top where you can exercise authority and get things done. Although somewhat of a rebel you attract much support through treating others with kindness and friendship. You have a broad scope and are naturally drawn to travel or projects which can expand your knowledge and understanding. Your talents and generosity bring you emotional and material contentment.

Eric

Ever powerful, kindly "Norse"

You are a visionary with courage and enthusiasm if a little hasty at times. Your ambitious nature can be satisfied when you apply wisdom, patience and self-discipline to your vitality and zest. You have wonderful way with words and may be drawn to the communications arena where there is the potential for great success. Your generous and warm nature attracts many friends and loved ones.

Nostalgia (Two): Virtual Insanity

Artist: JAMIROQUAI
Album: Travelling Without Moving
Label: Work (Sony-BMG Music Entertainment)
Composers: Jason Kay/ Toby Smith
Year: 1997

Nostalgia:
When I saw the music video, I was blown away. Being a mere kid with a fresh insight into the world of music videos, I was like, "HOW DID THEY DO THAT?" You have to admit that the video for "Virtual Insanity" is one of the most innovative in its time... actually, until now... Two days ago, my bandmate's cousin made me sing this song... and it actually felt good! Makes me want to bring it back. I think I may play this in one of our gigs. Haha!

LYRICS:
Ooh... hey, hey... oh
What we're living in... Let me tell you...

It's a wonder man can eat at all
When things are big that should be small
Who can tell what magic spells we'll be doing for us
And I'm giving all my love to this world, only to be told
I can't see, I can't breathe, no more will we be

And nothing's going to change the way we live
Coz we can always take but never give
And now that things are changing for the worse

See, whoa... its a crazy world we're living in
And I just can't see that half of us immersed in sin
Is all we have to give these

Futures made of virtual insanity now
Always seem to, be govern'd by this love we have
For useless, twisting, our new technology
Oh, now there is no sound - for we all live underground

And I'm thinking what a mess we're in
Hard to know where to begin
If I could slip the sickly ties that earthly man has made
And now every mother, can choose the color
Of her child, that's not nature's way

Well that's what they said yesterday
There's nothing left to do but pray
I think it's time I found a new religion

Whoa - it's so insane
To synthesize another strain
There's something in these
Futures that we have to be told

Futures made of virtual insanity - now
Always seem to, be govern'd by this love we have
For useless, twisting, our new technology
Oh, now there is no sound - for we all live underground

Now there is no sound
If we all live underground
And now it's virtual insanity
Forget your virtual reality
Oh, there's nothing so bad
I know yeah

Futures made of virtual insanity - now
Always seem to, be govern'd by this love we have
For useless, twisting, our new technology
Oh, now there is no sound - for we all live underground

Livin' in - Virtual Insanity
Livin' in - Virtual Insanity
Livin' in - Virtual Insanity
Livin' in - Virtual Insanity

Virtual Insanity is what we're living in
Yeah, yeah... well it's alright now...

Nostalgia (One): I Don't Want To

I asked ONE QUESTION...

What is your favorite song that you wish YOU wrote?

Well...

Bogs said:
"I Don't Want to Miss A Thing" by Aerosmith

Paolo said:
"Sunflower" by Chris Cornell

DJ Myke said:
"I've written it already." (Ano kaya yun?)

Jay Flava said:
"Crazy Life" by Toad the Wet Sprocket

Diane said:
"Over the Rainbow"

Kevin said:
"You Don't Miss Your Water (Till the Well Runs Dry)" by Craig David

Pink said:
"I Need You" by LeAnn Rimes

Thea said:
"Come Around" by Revelation (Wahaha! Go, Chirilin go! )

Ives said:
"Swept Away" by Christopher Cross

Eejay said:
"Forevermore" by Side A

Jai said:
"Closure" by Gerald Levert

Me?
"Ordinary People" by John Legend

Inconsolable

I actually like this song. Take a listen...

Interrogation 101

NOTABENE: Roaming aroung MULTIPLY, I stumbled upon a site by Faisal Tamoor. This blog was inspired by a friend. I revised it a bit but its basically the same:



Jack and Max are going to their religious service.
Jack wonders whether it would be all right to smoke while praying.

Max says, "Why don't you ask the Priest?"

So Jack goes up to the Priest and asks, "Priest, may I smoke while I pray?"

The Priest replied, "No, my son, you may not. That's utter disrespect to our religion."

Jack goes back to his friend and tells him what the good Priest told him.
Max says, "I'm not surprised. You asked the wrong question. Let me try."

And so Max goes up to the Priest and asks, "Priest, may I pray while I smoke?"

The Priest eagerly replies, "By all means, my son...by all means."

Food for Thought: The reply you get depends on the question you ask.



Example:
"Can I work on this project while I'm on vacation?"

Let's just see if that works! HAHA!

FUcK off, Haters.

I've got a right to be wrong
My mistakes will make me strong
I'm stepping out into the great unknown
I'm feeling wings though I've never flown
I've got a mind of my own
I'm flesh and blood to the bone
I'm not made of stone
Got a right to be wrong
So just leave me alone

I've got a right to be wrong
I've been held down too long
I've got to break free
So I can finally breathe
I've got a right to be wrong
Got to sing my own song
I might be singing out of key
But it sure feels good to me
Got a right to be wrong
So just leave me alone

You're entitled to your opinion
But it's really my decision
I can't turn back I'm on a mission
If you care don't you dare blur my vision
Let me be all that I can be
Don't smother me with negativity
Whatever's out there waiting for me
I'm going to faced it willingly

I've got a right to be wrong
My mistakes will make me strong
I'm stepping out into the great unknown
I'm feeling wings though I've never flown
I've got a mind of my own
Flesh and blood to the bone
See, I'm not made of stone
I've got a right to be wrong
So just leave me alone

I've got a right to be wrong
I've been held down to long
I've got to break free
So I can finally breathe
I've got a right to be wrong
Got to sing my own song
I might be singing out of key
But it sure feels good to me
I've got a right to be wrong
So just leave me alone

w h a p a k !

1. in an office, or maybe ur nearest library or bookstore. at the gym? yeah, that's about it.

2. that's quite stupefying. if it is... yes, i'd give it up.

3. no. i never forget bad memories.. i'll consider you as a lesson learned.

4. i want to be someone who made big impact with the small things i did.

5. *kiss*

Hmmm???

No. I don't think I will.

OK. I'M Changing THE RULES.

NOW you may:





INTERVIEW ME...

• ...but you will ONLY send your questions through PRIVATE MESSAGING.
• Don't worry! Hehe. I will answer them. (Patience. Hehe.)
• Please don't put me too much on the spot. My brain is going through major hysteria.
• I want YOU to be the only one who knows my answers. I want to keep it private...
• ...so I will post my answers in blog form. But I will put weird titles on them, so you'll just have to guess whose questions are they from.
• At dun sa nagtanong please lang... wag sabihin na sa inyo galing ang mga set of questions na sinagutan ko. Just give RANDOM COMMENTS if you'll react. For privacy's sake.
  
• Nagiinarte lang ako kasi kulang pa ako sa tulog! Wag nang pumalag! Haha!
  

OK, fire at will...

Right.

Die Informationen sind korrekt. Ich nehme es aller zum Herzen.




Aber ich tue es aller nicht.


Es ist nicht wegen meiner Erziehung. Es ist nicht wegen meiner Herkunft.


ES IST WEGEN ICH.


Muß ich wirklich jene Sachen tun?



Yes, maybe I should. I take risks every once in a while. This is me.





Why don't I play anymore? Weil ich nicht das Spiel mehr spielen kann...


... oder möglicherweise ist es, weil ich nicht das Spiel mehr.



It's nice to know your concerns... and that you are concerened. Thank you for that.


I'm don't consider myself wise beyond my years. But I completely understand the things you said to me. And they're all right. And they all make sense.



Aber für mich... sind einige der Sachen, die Sie sagten, nicht... recht...

...for me. Why? Because for me, es ist volles nicht rechtes. I'm not being stubborn. But somehow I still don't follow some parts of your story.




I know you're saying this in your point of view, because yours is different. But it definitely helped me.


So...


Yes, I will finish my studies. But I'm telling you, I'm not in a hurry. Or am I? Is time making me hurry?


Nein. Ich bilde mich Hast.

Gran Matador. Ube Cakes. Adobong Paksiw. Nilagang Pochero. Lambanog. Heineken. Chickenjoy. Dimsum.

Kung tutuusin, hindi ko naman talaga dapat intindihin ang bagay na ito. Kasi, kung sa akin lang naman ay sagrado ito at hindi dapat magmadali sa pagdedsisyon. Kasi (para sa akin) ang taong nararapat sa akin ay dadating. Oo, naniniwala ako dun. Hahayaan ko muna na mamuhay ng matiwasay bilang isang taong single.

Pero hindi naman ako tanga. Naghahanap din naman ako. HOY! Hindi ko kinakain yung mga sinabi ko. Wag ka ngang magpakaplastik! Ikaw rin naman, ano? Lahat tayo ay ganun. Kung sino man ang nagsasabing hindi siya ganun? HUWAW!!! Repapips... Ilublob kaya kita sa drum?

Sa panahong ito, marami ang taong tipong "nagkakamali" o kaya'y nagpapadalus-dalos sa pagsasabi ng "OO" o "HINDI" sa isang taong nanliligaw, humahanga, o nagmamahal.

Ngunit aking napag-isip-isip na may tamang uri ng pagkakamali. May isang taong mapaglaaanan mo ng sarili mo, hindi lang sa mga mabubuti mong katangian. Kung mahal ka niya ay tatanggapin niya kahit ang iyong mga masasamang katangian. And, of course, vice versa. Kumbaga ay kasama yun sa package dun sa nabili mong combo meal (Hehe.) It's not always rainbows and butterflies. Ano kayo? SIRA?

Hindi ko na alam kung dapat ko ba intindihin ang isang taong hunihingi ng payo, o nagtatanong kung ano ang dapat gawin kung nagkatampuhan, nag-away, o nag-break. Pero bakit nga ba naman hindi? Dapat lang naman ako makinig. Kailangan din naman nila ng outlet para sa kanilang mga nararamdaman. Wala sa akin yun.

Ganyan talaga ang magkakaibigan. In return, makikinig din naman sila sa'yo kapag ikaw naman ang nangailangan. Lahat naman tayo ay nangangailangan ng ganun. Oo, nandun yung ideya na... ang galing mong magpayo, pero sa sarili mo, hindi mo magawa kapag ikaw na ang nasa situwasyon niya. E, ano ngayon?

Alam mo ba... Yung mga taong hindi mo aasahang magiging sila... ay... nagiging sila! Yun bang mga tipong ayaw mong sila ang magkapares... ay... sila ang nagkakapares!

Ang tanga naman ng tanong ko. Siyempre! Alam mo! Hehe. Ewan ko ba, ewan ko na... Pag nagka-problema, wala na...

Dapat ba talagang tawaging isang pagkakamali ang isang pagkakamali? Ewan ko ba. Sabi nga nila, kapag umiibig ka, walang utak-utak! Puso ang iiral! Yun nga lang, alam naman nating MALI yun.

Ingat-ingat na lang. Wala mang perpekto sa pag-ibig, marami namang paraan para ito'y magtagal.

ALAK PA NgA...

B L I N D . . .

Thank you so much. You're remarkable... unbelievable.

It's been a while since I cried because I'm happy . Well, this morning, I did just that... because of you.

Yaky and I talked about the JOHARI window.



The second box (upper right) is called a blind spot. It's information of which the participant is not aware, but others are, and they can decide whether and how to inform the individual about these "blind spots."

I mean, how can something simple be so beautiful?

I didn't see it. I know I'm being real. I'm as real as I could be. Turns out there's much more... much, much more of me than meets the eye. I can't believe I am capable of doing those things. Small things that made such an impact on you.

This is for you. Thank you for showing me my blind spot. I thank you for reminding me to love what I am even more. Now I stand firmer, with my head up high, knowing that each and everyone of us can make a difference.


Thank you for letting me be me.

spell my name... and what it means (???)

From YackS!!!

SPELL YOUR SURNAME tapos...yun na yun! galing sa friendster 'to...

A: you like to drink.
B: you like people.
C: you are really silly.
D: one in a million.
E: great in bed.
F: you are dead sexy.
G: you never let people tell you what to do.
H: you have a very good personality,
looks and a very good kisser.
I: great in bed.
J: people adore u.
K: you're wild and crazy.
L: unbelievably great in bed.
M: great in bed.
N: you like to drink a LOT.
O: awesome kisser.
P: you are popular with all types of people.
Q: you are hypocrite.
R: fuckin crazy. (in a fun way)
S: easy to fall in love with.
T: you're loyal to those you love
U: you are really silly.
V: you are not judgemental
W: you are very broad minded.
X: you never let people tell you what to do.
Y: best boy/girl friend any one can ask for.
Z: always ready.

OK....

S: easy to fall in love with (wooshoo???)
E: great in bed (abaganaman?!?!?)
S: easy to fall in love with (ulitin ba? hehe.)
B: you like people (yeah, i do!)
R: fuckin crazy. (in a fun way) (i could be...)
E: great in bed (at panindigan na?!?!?)
N: you like to drink a LOT (why am i sensing this ain't right? )
O: awesome kisser (how would you know? only one way to find out...)

SO... who's next??? HAHAHAHAHA!

Personal

Overflowing thoughts... not bad at all. Although it could be risky because maybe... you're not aware of the things you really want to say; you end up saying the wrong things, creating gaps, bruises and all that.

Stupidity must not take over you mind. Stupidity must not take over your heart.
Wait... do I even know what I'm saying... really?

It's about an hour and a half to go till school starts. What's it gonna be? Will I just float around like the rest of the crowd? Or will I stand up and stand out because they have to know I have something so share... something to say.



Blah, blah... BLAH.

Later, people.

6WeirdThingsAboutMe

Eto daw kasi yun e... galing kay Kebs ang akon...

OK. ETO NA.

1. MUSIC LOVER 3.0 - Kahit anong trip ng music ay pwedeng-pwede kong sakyan. Ayos lang sa akin. May mga times na depende sa mood, syempre, kaso hindi naman. Nagko-compose ako out of the blue pero hindi ko naman sinusulat o rinerecord agad... ngunit pag ginawa ko naman - let's say three months later - ay tanda ko pa rin every detail.

2. SCRIPTWRITER/DIRECTOR/ACTOR 5.0 - When it comes to sticky situations at kailangan mong lumusot dito A.S.A.P. - at nagkataong kasama mo ako - tinitiyak ko sa'yo na makakalusot tayo dyan. Wag ka nang magtaka kung palagi kami nina Che at Ykay sa C.R.

3. THE ULTIMATE TORPE - All I have is my singing to impress a girl. Yun ang usual first move ko pag ako'y dumidiskarte sa isang babae. Figured out that I could start it from there. Pero sumasablay pa rin ako. Mahiyain talaga ako sa mga babae lalu na pag gustung-gusto ko.

4. THE ULTIMATE HOMEBODY - Kung ako ang papipiliin, gusto ko sa bahay lang ako e... Basta gusto ko lang... Sa bahay lang talaga ako...

5. I LOVE SEX - Not in the way that you are thinking, people.

6. I'M A VIRGIN - Ask me for details.