Chapter 2

Moving on isn't really hard to do. You just pick yourself up, shrug the dirt of your shoulders, and keep walking. Just move along little doggy.

Stepping it up to the plate. Not being scared, taking your chances and making that jump. No big!


...Really now...?

Chapter 1.5

"I hold a memory of myself
so young and foolish and not knowing

Careless decisions that I made
I wish somebody would have told me

But a new day is here
it's time that I embrace it

can't wait another day
right now I gotta face it

I never ever wanna press rewind
never wanna go back in time
not much glory in that story but it's mine

So I'm lovin' who I am today
the past has passed away

finally I have forgiven me"

- Forgiven Me, Mary Mary

I have made mistakes. I feel down sometimes, thinking, re-assessing my life.
Doesn't everybody?

I am a person who wants to feel. Just do anything. Say what I want to say.
I pray that we all learn everyday...



Everyday...



Because you know, at the end of the day, it will all be worth it.




GOD BLESS YOU ALL!

Ne-Yo, Jamie Foxx and Fabolous - She Got Her Own

This is such a good song.
Watch... features cameos from Estelle and Eve...

Put Your Hands On Me (New Mix)

Pretending to have a song with Joss Stone is quite fun.
I think it turned out quite good. I know there's still flaws. Hehe.
Just take a listen!

If You

Just take a listen...

I'm a musician.

Yes, I know it is.

I have been doing this job for almost three years now, and I can't think of anything first when I wake up in the morning but think about song, singing them, and playing them in my trusty synth/keyboard.

But this job doesn't feel like a job. Nope, it's just too much fun for me.

I can't wait to share it with all of you.

Peace out! God Bless!

Ayaw ba o gusto? Hehe.

Pag-uwi namin ni tatay kanina, may napansin akong ad habang may trapik. Ang sabi ay:

"MATABA KA BA?




E di bumili ka na ng (name of product withheld) at sigurado akong papayat ka...





SA AYAW AT SA GUSTO MO!"

















???????





Ano bang klaseng usapan yan? Bibili na nga at magpapapayat... dadali pa ng ganun. Hahaha!

It's Near.

I just know it.

God, thank YoU!!!

Ne-Yo Takes a Bow

She gave a round of applause... followed by a standing ovation

I feel so dumb right now... standing outside her house
Trying to apologize cause I told quite a few lies
Damn... she found me out
So now I'm saying sorry cause I am
Though it's very clear to me that she don't give a damn

Got me out here puttin' on a show... neighbors laughin' at me
I just want her to know without her I can't be happy
So I'm puttin' on a show... I hope it's entertaining
Don't say "We're over now." (But it's over now)
Please let me in the house

She said, "And the award for the best lie goes to you,
for makin' me believe that you could be faithful to me.
Let's hear your speech now."

She gave a round of applause... followed by a standing ovation

Got me out here puttin' on a show... neighbors laughin' at me
I just want her to know without her I can't be happy
So I'm puttin' on a show... I hope it's entertaining
Don't say "We're over now." (But it's over now)
Please let me in the house

Baby, please... Don't say "We're over now"

Akala mo NANAMAN kung sino...

Sa kadahilanang sira ang aming DSL nanaman sa cellphone nanaman ako nakapagblog. Labas lang ng damdamin. Kung matamaan ka ulit sa alin man sa mga to, e di ikaw ulit yun!



O eto na nga po. May mga naririnig na akong bali-balita.

Hmmm... mag-re-react lang ako for the sake na makapag-react. I see this in an optimistic way.

YUMAYABANG DAW ANG BANDANG REV2.





Aba, teka...





Ibig sabihon may edge pala ang grupo namin. It's a good sign. After all, hindi pagkakabalahan ng tsismis ang grupo namin kung hindi kami nagbubuti sa aming trabaho bilang mga musikero sa mga bars. Hindi kami papansinin ng ganito. Ginagawa lang po namin ang aming trabaho.

Respeto naman o! Lahat naman ay nagsisimula sa ibaba. Rome wasn't built in a day. Sa mga taong bumabatikos sa grupo namin, maraming salamat. Natutuwa kami sa inyo kasi binibigyang importansya nyo ang pagbatikos sa aming grupo.


Alam ng Diyos kung ano ang totoo. Mag-ingat po kayo and God Bless!

Loudfusion Playlist Update!

Check out my Multiply Homepage to see the songs that I have! All these songs are HQ VBR mp3 formats. You can PM me if you want any of these songs:

1. Wait a Minute (Just a Touch) - Estelle
2. One Step at a TIme - Jordin Sparks
3. All I See [Remix] - Kylie Minogue featuring MIMS
4. I'll Be Lovin' U Long Time [Remix] - Mariah Carey featuring T.I.
5. Closer - Ne-Yo
6. Forever - Chris Brown
7. Still Will - 50 Cent featuring Akon
8. I Kissed a Girl - Katy Perry
9. If I Never See Your Face Again - Maroon 5 featuring Rihanna
10. 4 Minutes - Madonna featuring Justin Timberlake
11. When I Grow Up [Video Mix] - Pussycat Dolls
12. Lucky - Jason Mraz featuring Colbie Caillat
13. Disturbia - Rihanna
14. Emotional [Remix] - Casely featuring Flo Rida
15. Homecoming - Kanye West featuring Chris Martin
16. Bust It Baby Part 2 - Plies featuring Ne-Yo
17. Work [Freemasons Radio Edit] - Kelly Rowland
18. Get Down - Groove Armada featuring Stush
19. Cheer Me Up - Natasha Bedingfield
20. Church - T-Pain
21. Love Like This - Natasha Bedingfield featuring Sean Kingston
22. American Boy - Estelle featuring Kanye West
23. With Every Heartbeat - Robyn
24. Teenage Love Affair - Alicia Keys
25. Shawty Get Loose - Lil' Mama featuring Chris Brown and T-Pain
26. We Made It - Busta Rhymes featuring Linkin Park
27. Umbrella [Travis Barker Mix] - Rihanna
28. Energy - Keri Hilson
29. Teardrops on My Guitar [Pop Mix] - Taylor Swift
30. Better in Time - Leona Lewis
31. No Air - Jordin Sparks featuring Chris Brown
32. You Don't Talk Much - Joy and Bevs
33. Love Song - Sara Bareilles
34. Take a Bow - Rihanna
35. Love - Keyshia Cole
36. Always Be My Baby - David Cook
37. Ready to Fly - Amy Pearson
38. Bottle It Up - Sara Bareilles
39. Our Song [Pop Mix] - Taylor Swift
40. I'm Yours - Jason Mraz
41. I'll Be Waiting - Lenny Kravitz
42. Thunder - Boys Like Girls
43. Beating My Heart - Jon McLaughlin
44. Go Girl - Pitbull featuring Young Boss and Trina
45. Handlebars - Flobots
46. Mercy - Duffy
47. Rehab - Amy Winehouse

I will update this playlist whenever I fell like it, so just keep going back to this spot for more songs! Peace Y'all!

You'll Never...

Click to play


You'll never know
why the sky is blue
why I'm in love with you
and why are you so beautiful...
...so beautiful to me

You'll never see
Lady Liberty... or what you mean to me
'cause now you've gone so far away...
...so far away from me

Every night I hear you call my name
and I rush to your side...
...but I know it's all a lie
You'll never know

You'll never hear
whispers in you ear
so soft, and yet, so clear...
Those three words I should have said
after many years

You'll never feel
my skin upon you skin
while I am touching your chin
Moving to the music of the love that we have made

There are days when I just can't let go
of the love that we had...
...although many years have passed
You'll never know

Now I know
many years have passed
and I have to go on
But your memory still lives with me
here inside my heart

And I know
you're happy where you are
with Him right by your side
Even though I can't be with you
I know you're here with me

...Please don't tell me it's a lie...


DEMO ONLY ©2007 by blueeses
Music, lyrics, arrangement, and all vocals by Eric Sesbreño

The Song!

Yes, this is a music rant.

Our group wants to play Estelle's "Wait a Minute (Just a Touch)."

But not just the album version (which is still cool). We are aiming for the performance version live from Later... with Jools Holland. Not bad, because Estelle just kicks ass when she performs! Effortless cool!

As I'm doing my research on this song, imagine my horror in finding out that there are TWO versions of her performances in Later... two totally different arrangements in both performances! Well, not really. It's just we're going to find a way on how we're gonna mix the two together. Haha!

HERE is the link for performance version one (HQ audio, 5.34 MB)

HERE is the link for performance version two (HQ audio, 7 MB)

This is just an über random music outburst, so pardon me. 

Music up! Peace out! 

The SoNg!

Yes, this is a music rant.

Our group wants to play Estelle's "Wait a Minute (Just a Touch)."

But not just the album version (which is still cool). We are aiming for the performance version live from Later... with Jools Holland. Not bad, because Estelle just kicks ass when she performs! Effortless cool!

As I'm doing my research on this song, imagine my horror in finding out that there are TWO versions of her performances in Later... two totally different arrangements in both performances! Well, not really. It's just we're going to find a way on how we're gonna mix the two together. Haha!

HERE is the link for performance version one (HQ audio, 5.34 MB)

HERE is the link for performance version two (HQ video, 99 MB)

This is just an über random music outburst, so pardon me. 

Music up! Peace out! 

The thing is...

I live.

I love.

I learn.

I trip.

I fall.

I rise.

I laugh.

I cry.

I play.

I do.

I don't.

I can

I won't.

I will.

I stopped.

Akala mo naman kung sino...

Kung matamaan ka sa alin man sa mga to, e di ikaw yun!

1. Pare, ayos ka rin a! Ang angas mo makatingin. Akala mo kung sino kang lider-lideran. Puro ka lang hangin, wala ka namang ibuga. Tama na yang pag-astang matapang. Yan ang lalamon sa'yo.

2. Ate, pare-pareho lang tayong nagtatrabaho. Mahal ko ang aking musika. Mahal ko ang mga boss ko. Wala namang biruan ng ganun.

3. Alam mo, hindi por que lasing ka na, e gaganyanin mo na ako. E ako nga, hindi ko pa iniisip yun, inuunahan mo na ako.

4. Umuwi ka na. Wag mong kalimutan ang iPhone ko ha?

5. Wag mo akong gagalitin. Pag dumating dun, ay sori ka na lang.

6. Naninibago ako sa'yo kapag tayo ay nagkikita. Maamoy lang kita ay tindig na ang lahat sa akin.

7. Totoo ba yung sinabi mo? Baka naman nag-iisip lang yun. Babalik din ang lahat sa normal.

8. Kung anuman ang desisyon mo ay susuportahan ko. Ingat ka lang.

9. Pare, suntukan na lang kaya?

10. Bec, ang sarap talaga ng Caldereta mo. Heehee!

I'm ready.

I'm tired of complaining.

I'm sick of just sitting around.

I'm don't want to be that guy who just keeps on whining.

I'm actually gonna do something about it.

I WILL do it. I am now willing to make the sacrifices. I willing to step out of my comfort zone. I don't know where it will bring me. I may get hurt along the way, but I guess I'll just have to suck it all up. Just growl loud.

I will start. I will keep doing it. I will continue doing it.

Slowly but surely, I'll get there.

It's about time I made some actions. I could keep dreaming. No, wait. I will keep dreaming. As I continue with my journey, I will keep dreaming. I will learn everyday. I may fall, but I won't give up. I will make it. I will succeed. I will wake up each day with something to look forward to. I won't be the same person. I will make it because I know I can make it.

To the people who will help me in the way, Thank you. God Bless you.

To the people who will try to break me down, Thank you. You are there to test me. Just be sure that you know who you're dealing with.

Yes, I've been lonely. It's been kinda grim, to tell you the truth. Uncertainties have been lurking along the way, making me question my sanity.

Judge me.

Hate me.

I don't care.

Go ahead.

Step on me.

Push me to the edge.

I'll be ready.

BRING IT ON. 

blogging sa cellphone... kasi na-stranded

Good day, guys! Eto ako at walang kuryente dito sa amin. Kaya dito ako sa cellphone nagba-blog. Hehe. Quite painstaking, I know. But I figured out magkwento na rin ako kahit papano. Biruin nyo, inabot kami ng bagyo sa Mug Café kahapon. Kasi nga, si Frank hindi man lang nagtext na darating na pala. Haha! Ayun! Stranded kami nina Che at ang kanyang boyfriend na si Lovic. Hehe. Inabot kmi ng 5 am bago naka-alis.

Ihahatid na sana namin si Che sa kanyang tahanan, kaso pagdating sa entrance ng subdivision nila ay tumirik ang sasakyan ko! Waaaa! Nagawan din naman ng paraan. Yun nga lang nakapagtulak talaga si Lovic habang ako ung nasa manibela. Kaya pare, salamat talaga.

Sinubukan naming dumaan sa ibang ruta, e baha na rin. Then, sinubukan namin through diversion road... kaso may bumagsak na malaking puno. Wala talagang makakadaan! Waaa! So we were back from where we started... sa Mug Café. Kinuha na ni Lovic ang motor niya at sa bahay muna namin nakitulog si Che kanina. Wala talagang magagawa at bagsak na ang mga katawan namin. Haha!

Lampas na si Frank dito sa amin. Sa ibang parte ng Lucena may kuryente na ulit. Dito, wala pa. Ngunit makapag-blog lang ay mobile internet na lang ako. Wahaha! Ohman, I miss you guys! Paramdam naman kayo sa akin! Dun sa mga hndi pa nakakaalam, bago na ang number ko last December pa. PM nyo na lang ako para bigay ko sa inyo.

Hanggang dito na muna mga tropapips. Pagod na ako sa pagta-type sa keypads! Haha! Basta, ingat kayo. And I pray that you and all of your loved ones are safe.

Peace out! God Bless.

blueeses music

I have a new playlist!



I'm going to update this playlist with new songs from time to time. This will be in my Multiply Homepage as wellas my Friendster profile page.

If you want any of these songs, just send me a private message, OK? Thanks!

Ace Asero, Krayzie V. and blueeses in: Pilipinas

This is quite the collaborative effort.

For my part, I kept my singing style as smooth as possible in contrast to the hip-hop sample which just happens to be one of my favorite songs, "Shape of My Heart" by Sting. But for this version (which I call the "Shape" Mix) I used samples of the version used by the Sugababes.

TITLE: Pilipinas [Shape Mix]
Artists: Ace Asero/Krayzie V. of MHC/blueeses
Composers: Ace Asero/Krayzie V./blueeses

(Contains a sample of "Shape of My Heart" by Sting and "Shape" by Sugababes)

To download the song, click H E R E.

To ser Ace.I hope this is up to your expectations.

Yes, I am promoting. Hehe.

I have posted some performance videos oy my group, Rev2. Che is with me, while I do the keyboards and vocals too.

I am inviting you to check out the videos by clicking on the titles below:

CARELESS WHISPER
HIM
SWEETEST GOODBYE
BE MY NUMBER TWO
UMBRELLA
BEAUTIFUL LIAR
GO ON GIRL

Feel free to watch them. And I do hope you could leave some comments.

More post like this, I hope. Haha!
God Bless! Peace!

34 Things About Me (from Osyr)

Pare, paltan ko lang ng rules ha? Hehe. Saka yung set of questions ay 34 lang. Tingnan mong mabuti yung last part, simula number 25 at 33. Hehe!




I want to know 35 things about you. I don't care if we never talk, if you're more of a lurker, or if we already know everything about each other.

BE HONEST! Answer the questions in your blog, then tag FOUR people!

1) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
No.

2) What was your dream growing up?
To be a good singer.

3) What talent do you wish you had?
Guitar playing.

4) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
Any kind of beverage. Just as long as it's refreshing.

5) Favorite vegetable?
All the green, leafy ones.

6) What was the last book you read?
Readers' Digest June 2008 issue

7) What's your zodiac sign?
Gemini

8) Any tattoos and/or piercings? Explain where.
No. I wish I had a tattoo, so I settle for the henna ones.

9) Worst habit?
Biting nails.

10) If you saw me walking down the street, would you offer me a ride?
Given that I know you, yes I would.

11) What is your favorite sport?
Badminton.

12) Do you have a negative or optimistic attitude?
I do my best to be optimistic most of the time.

13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
I'd stare at you in the eye and sing the BEAM toothpaste jingle... without laughing.

14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
When my mom died. I have to be strong, but still I miss her.

15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
I can give you SIX! Click here.

16) Do you have any pets?
We have one dog.

17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
That depends.

18) What was your first impression of me?
A smart(y-aleck) person.

19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
Cute. Still it depends upon the make-up.

20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
My belly, turning them to abs takes a lot of hard work.

21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
I could be both.

22) What color eyes do you have?
Black.

23) Ever been arrested?
No.

24) Bottle or can soda?
Bottle.

25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
Save it in my account.

26) What's your favorite place to hang at?
Home, Mug Café

27) Do you believe in ghosts?
No.

28) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
Music.

29) Do you swear a lot?
Depends on what I'm drinking.

30) Biggest pet peeve?
Someone who doesn't know what a pet peeve is.

31) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
Blue.

32) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
HELL YEAH!

33) Do you believe in God?
HEAVENS YEAH!

34) Who are the FOUR people you're tagging?
KEVIN, JE-ANNE, YKAY, and JAI

Chapter 1: blue

This is about something that I just want to write about, and I hope you will read it from start to finish. Yes, I know it's been awhile since I wrote a real blog, but for some reason, I've become preoccupied with so many things, that I just don't want to post anything. Maybe it's because I'm denying myself the fact that I can write and I have to write. I know that I have to say some things but I really can't... until now.

Yesterday was mother's birthday. We went to the cemetery to pay our respects. Just want everyone to know that.

I'm bothered by a lot of things. I really do not know how to pick myself off the ground because of what happened. But as Fergie said in a song... "...I'm gonna miss you like a child misses (his) blanket, but I've got to get a move on with my life." If you see me now... I'll boldly say...

I'm beginning to know what LOVE is.

No, not LOVE in general. I think you know what I mean. I'm longing to be with someone, but still I have the courage to wait for the right time. There just comes a time when you think about these things, I guess. Every night before I go to sleep I think about what might have been if I made a move. Would I be too aggressive? I'm not that type, but I am scared of that impression. People say I do look tough because of my shaved head, broad shoulders and huge built.

I don't want to be misunderstood.

I think you could call me a late-bloomer when it comes to... ehem... certain things. Tropapips say I am good-looking (although I don't really see it) so I should take that advantage to... score. This little black book concept is getting too strange for me. Sometimes, I think I am committing a huge sin if I start to something. I told a friend about that. That friend I consider someone who's the suave type. Lord knows how many people he has slept with, but he knows that I know it's just a game. He said, "Pare, it's all in the mind... It's all in your mind." Really now? I just feel too different about it. What about, you say? Hmmm... maybe the risk of getting caught? When you cheat, you play dirty. Everyone knows that. Whatever the situation is... it feels wrong to me.

I'm not that type of guy... Well, I do my best not to be...

In some gigs, I feel it. Yep, the pressure of... getting it on anytime soon. That's night life. Anything can happen, you can be whoever you want to be. Your fantasies can be real, even just for a night.

But what happens when the sun rises?

After the bars close, bottles downed, food purged, and urges fulfilled... what's next? Nothing. Nothing happened really. Or you can act... pretend as if nothing happened. Still there is that small part of you not wanting it to end. You just want to drown in all the booze that you can handle and seize the guy or girl who rubs up on you and makes you dance on the dance floor... the bedroom... the kitchen... your car... your hummer... your truck... the bathroom... Admit it, you don't want it to end. It just goes on and on. But it does disappear.

And in the end you long for what's REAL.

To those who found them already, congratulations. Hold on to them. Remember the reason why you are with that person. All the temptation in the world can't penetrate what you have if what you have is real. Cherish every moment that you have with them. Do not take them for granted. In this life, you may do everything in your power to plan and do what you want... but you'll never know what happens next.

To those people who are me, live you life. Go. Move along. Don't be afraid to make mistakes but just the same, be careful not to make them. You are not stupid. You are single, but you are not alone. You're not ugly, fat, stubborn, strict, a nagger, a chatterbox, or anything else. You are YOU. This sounds cliché but there is definately someone for you. You may look for them, or they may find you. Just remember to never give up on the LOVE that I am talking about. Whatever from of LOVE it is, you can always make more when you need it.

I'd like to share something I've read from a shoutout from a friend's Friendster profile:

"If what's ahead scares you, and what's behind hurts you, just LOOK UP for someone to help you."

I just hope I made sense. Even though... in some crazy way... maybe I don't know what I'm saying.








But in my gut I get the feeling that...



Yeah...





I DO.






Peace, y'all.

L-O-V-E (Jai tagged Me.)

RULES:

A. People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs.Tag 8 people. Those who are tagged cannot refuse.

B. These 8 people must state who they were tagged by. You cannot tag the person who tagged you. Continue this game by sending this to 8 other people.

C. Notify the person who have tagged you that you've posted this to your blog.

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
It already happened to me. I didn't contact her until she couldn't take it anymore. Siya ang naghabol. Bakit ako? Hindi naman ako yung naagkasala. *hahaha*

2. Who will you choose, the person who loves you or the person you love?
The person I love.

3. What's your take on same-sex marriages?
I have friends who are in that relationship. They're not hurting anyone. Don't bother them.

4.Are you inlove?
Maybe. CrazyCool.

5. What's your ideal lover like?
Someone who can tolerate... anything?

6. loving someone or being loved by someone else?
BOTH.

7. If the person you like does not accept you, would you continue to wait for them to change their feelings?
That's entirely up to me, I guess. I have no freakin' idea anymore.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
Ano bang klaseng katanungan ito? *Jai, may alam ka ba? Hehe.*

9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy recently?
Yes.

10. What do you want most in life?
Challenges. Good challenges.

11. Is being tagged fun?
Yeah, I guess.

12. Name people you cannot live without?
My family.

13. Who is currently the most important person to you?
No idea. Meron yata. Ewan!

14. What kind of person do you think to the person who tagged you?
A genius. A goddess!

15. Would you rather be single and rich or married and poor?
Single and absopositutely muthaeffin filthy RICH!!!

16. If the person you secretly like cannot recognize you anymore, what would you do/how would you react?
Move along, little froggy. Get over it and get re-acquainted. Then, pin her down. (Wha???)

17. Would you give your all in a relationship?
Yes.

18. If you fall in love with two persons simultaneously, who would you pick?
P****G I** PATI!

19. What type of friends do you like?
Frogs.

20. If you played a prank on someone, and he/she fell for the trick, what would you do?
I'll laugh about it! That's the purpose of pulling a prank, right? Of course, I'll apologize.

I'll TAG: liza, ozzy, riki, vito, sheena, pink, cheryl

Good Enough...

...I am...






I tell myself...




I have no idea if it's real, though.
Lack of confidence? Not really. Natatanga lang siguro ako.

Eto na ba yun? This is another risk that I have to take.
Is this right? Will I breakdown?






They tell me, "Take a chance."

"Why don't you?"

"Don't be afraid."








"It's about time."






Well...











I hope they're right.

Mabuti pa ang mga ipis...

Nakita ko to sa isang gasulinahan sa San Fernando, Pampanga.



Yun lang.

Have a good Lenten Season.